I've been thinking about this for months now. I am lonely but is that always such a bad thing? I've had so many things to deal with do I need to address it? I'm not lonely for family or friends but companionship. How do women my age deal with it when they slow down and let it settle in on them? It settles on me when I'm awake in the middle of the night and when I need to make big decisions. Divorce papers are sitting on my desk. Separation has only made me surer of my decision. I am the bad guy.
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The things we do for kids-- I held on for years 'for the kids' even while friends of mine whose parents had divorced assured me that unhappy parents together is a worse situation than parents living apart.
Loneliness is a strange thing too. Since I left my husband I've felt the loneliness less -- it was sharper-edged when I was sharing a house with someone who didn't love me, than now when I'm in my own house with just my kids. I *wish* I had divorce papers sitting on my desk -- can't afford that step yet. Can't afford a desk either LOL. One step at a time, I guess.
I hope things go well for you and get better from here!
xox
Honey, I am praying for you. Just praying. Peace. Comfort. Courage.
Rachel
If you & Alan love one another may be there's a way... With such a large family and all the complications no wonder the relationship crumbled under the strain. You know yourself best, and the sense of betrayal and all the hurt have wearied you. Take best care of you, whatever that entails. There are a large number of lonely women going it alone, and although I wish I wasn't one of them I know that it is best this way for me. Children grow up and grow away, quite quickly, and that's when the real killer lonliness kicks in.
Peas in a pod, you and I...I miss friends and family in WV, so that makes me ill to deal with, and he works 2 jobs...That makes us both ill! I am so sorry you are feeling alone with him there. That is a feeling worse than being ALONE. I love you, girlie, and I pray that you find comfort and companionship in God, and that He will be who keeps you from feeling lonely. Call anytime, or hit me up on FB :) I am praying peace for you.
Love,
~Tiff~
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