It's A New Year.

I'm happy to start a new year. I wish it could be with a clean slate but I will learn to use an eraser this year or lose it and hit the chalk board with a water hose!
Resolutions
1. Be happy.
2. Be a better mother, daughter, sister, and friend....ie spend quality time with those I love.
3. Ditch people and situations that are wearing me down and making my life hell. Healthy relationships are the only ones I will allow now..unless it's family...because they are family.
4. Write more.
5. Art Journals....need to get back into this because it makes me sooooo happy.
6. Listen to more music....is this possible..yes...it makes me happy.
7. Relationships...again....file the divorce papers and find someone to spend time with who will be good to me.
8. Take up for myself.....Folks, I am a doormat.
9. Be a nicer person. I am a nice person and an empathetic one but it's not enough.
!0. Find homes for all the animals I have taken in and keep the core pets I love and started with. Fostering means fostering....not keeping.
I promised the girls this morning that things would get better. I keep trying to do this by not hurting anyone but  it's not possible. Hannah will be leaving in 8 months for college. Her words to me this morning..."Mom, you have to fix all this. Me and Kate understand and we can do it. I'll be at college in a few months and things need to be better". Yeah, I'm going to hurt and piss people off to make our lives better.
Job front is good. I wish the job could be full time because working two jobs part time isn't easy. I come home exhausted. I have to say that I work with good people at both jobs. I couldn't be more blessed...honestly. The last few months I have made new friends that I know are keepers. So, I see the light at the end of the tunnel and it's not a train..it's sunshine.